For Christmas Eve at Tehillah (2010)
Written on Dec 24, 2010
I couldn’t stop looking at him. He was the most beautiful, adorable baby boy I had ever seen. He had little brown eyes and black curly hair, and beautiful brown soft skin and tiny little fingers. Oh well, maybe all little babies have tiny little fingers. I could go on and on and on about the beauty of this miracle in my hands. None had more beautiful tiny fingers like those of my baby Yeshua…
The birds around us were singing a song and the trees whispered praises as it flapped its leaves in a great applause. The river nearby gave a splashing sound as it hit the rocks by the bank. Everything around us was peaceful… it almost felt like everything knew that we were there. Not because of me, but because of my son, Yeshua. He was a month old now… I wouldn’t let creation take my place. So I sang to him as he gently suckled milk from me. With his eyes closed he firmly gripped one of my fingers and had a feast on my chest. He pulled my long hair whenever he had the chance to. I laughed whenever he did that. He was... beautiful!
Sing: Beautiful one I love. Beautiful One I adore
Beautiful one my soul must sing….
My soul, my soul must sing… beautiful one…
Looking straight into his eyes I softly said to him “Wow… A holy being sent by Jehovah, the God worshipped by our fathers Abraham, Isaac and Jacob is fed by a young Jewish girl called Mariam!” it was still too much to comprehend.
When I was little Father used to tell me about Father Abraham and how God made a covenant with him. An everlasting covenant of love. “Like the stars in the sky would his seed be!” I remembered Father’s words. Father wouldn’t believe if I told Him about it.. That now, the one who placed the stars is in my hands.
I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time. Sometimes Yosef and I just looked at Yeshua in his cradle and we worshiped Yahweh. We couldn’t comprehend the greatness of what just happened through us. The prophets had spoken about this. They had spoken about this baby and all this time I never knew that it was I chosen by Yahweh to bring forth greatness. A deliverer. A savior.. Who am I to be the mother of the Lord of Israel? Unworthy I am…
The past ten months have been the hardest yet the most beautiful days of my life. It was just the other day when Yosef’s uncle came to see my father because Yosef wanted my hand in marriage. The next thing you know, we were going to have a baby!
I can still remember the day it happened… The day I got pregnant... Oh God, you are amazing… I am amazed of this miracle in my hands… The salvation of mankind born through a human being… I am afraid to even mention to myself these terrifying deeds of our Lord. I am humbled Jehovah. Humbled for you have chosen me and blessed me beyond measure… For this is not just a baby boy… This is what Israel has been waiting for.
Yeshua stopped suckling. It was like he had heard what I just said. I was crying as I sang..
SING: You are beautiful beyond description… To marvelous for words.. To wonderful for comprehension.. like nothing ever seen or heard… who can grasp you infinite wisdom.. Who can fathom the depth of your love… you are beautiful beyond description.. Majesty.. Enthroned above… I stand in awe
(Well, maybe I don’t have the most beautiful voice in the world (chuckle), but I am sure Yeshua didn’t mind.)
I was not born in the palace, but here I am mothering a King. My womb has been blessed and all people of the earth because of you Yeshua. You have come in a disguise to a realm lower than yourself… only a few can discern who you truly are. Blessed are they whose inner eyes have recognized you.. What have we done to deserve such amazing love…. Oh how I wish I could tell mother and father about everything that has been happening. And my sister Salome, o how I miss her… There is so much to tell… About Prophet Simeon and Prophetess Anna and what they said to me about Yeshua. And the angels that have been appearing and guiding Yosef and I every day. At least Cousin Elizabeth understands me… But she is too far from me now.
But The Lord God has been my strength… He has been there when no one else wanted anything to do with me. My friends laughed at me and my parents ashamed of the disgrace I have caused to the family. But because of the Lord’s faithfulness I delivered his purpose safely. No harm has touched us. Safely I delivered what he miraculously placed in me… And he who placed Yeshua in me, he who made Yosef stay by my side to this day, he will see that Yeshua grows strong and healthy…
Yosef is already thinking of what a great carpenter you will be! Ha! A carpenter… we laughed together as he told me about it… He is a dreamer that one! I can just imagine you in Yosef’s workshop. He is a hard working man, with a kind and loving heart, no doubt about it. . And I am sure you will learn a lot from him... but you My Yeshua, you are more than a carpenter. I have no one else to tell so I will always tell you and remind myself that what I carried for 9 months is so much greater than myself. “He will be given the throne of his father David,” that’s what the angel of the Lord said unto me when he brought me the news. Of course I don’t tell that to Yosef. I would like for Yosef to think of you as his own. He has been so kind to me. He truly is a man of God.
I was sitting outside the house. I raised my head and looked at the river where my husband was. Yosef was looking up the sky. He has been doing so much of that lately. The sun had just awaken, and Yosef spent most of the night meditating upon the love Yahweh has for us. He says there are angels all around us. All the time…
I stood up and started walking around the garden. I smiled when I saw Yosef dancing. He is so beautiful. Then I looked at Yeshua again and said. Actually, you are not my baby Yeshua. I am just a steward of God’s seed. For you were given to me not of human efforts. Yosef and I did nothing to get you. I would be a fool if I had chosen to abort you or even consider how the Jewish leaders would think of me. The moment I said “Be it unto me according to thy will,” I was filled with the Holy Ghost and I know that is when he gave me you.
“We are just vessels my Lord” I said to Yeshua… “Yes, You are my baby… But greater than that, you are my Lord and I am your servant” tears were running down my face, I kissed his forehead and smiled. Yeshua opened his eyes and smiled back at me and his peace filled my heart.
xx
May His love consume you..
And may our eyes be opened to see that what He has done for us is the greatest love of all.. And may we respond to that love.. Because, each and every one of us was born for a purpose!
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Written on Dec 24, 2010
I couldn’t stop looking at him. He was the most beautiful, adorable baby boy I had ever seen. He had little brown eyes and black curly hair, and beautiful brown soft skin and tiny little fingers. Oh well, maybe all little babies have tiny little fingers. I could go on and on and on about the beauty of this miracle in my hands. None had more beautiful tiny fingers like those of my baby Yeshua…
The birds around us were singing a song and the trees whispered praises as it flapped its leaves in a great applause. The river nearby gave a splashing sound as it hit the rocks by the bank. Everything around us was peaceful… it almost felt like everything knew that we were there. Not because of me, but because of my son, Yeshua. He was a month old now… I wouldn’t let creation take my place. So I sang to him as he gently suckled milk from me. With his eyes closed he firmly gripped one of my fingers and had a feast on my chest. He pulled my long hair whenever he had the chance to. I laughed whenever he did that. He was... beautiful!
Sing: Beautiful one I love. Beautiful One I adore
Beautiful one my soul must sing….
My soul, my soul must sing… beautiful one…
Looking straight into his eyes I softly said to him “Wow… A holy being sent by Jehovah, the God worshipped by our fathers Abraham, Isaac and Jacob is fed by a young Jewish girl called Mariam!” it was still too much to comprehend.
When I was little Father used to tell me about Father Abraham and how God made a covenant with him. An everlasting covenant of love. “Like the stars in the sky would his seed be!” I remembered Father’s words. Father wouldn’t believe if I told Him about it.. That now, the one who placed the stars is in my hands.
I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time. Sometimes Yosef and I just looked at Yeshua in his cradle and we worshiped Yahweh. We couldn’t comprehend the greatness of what just happened through us. The prophets had spoken about this. They had spoken about this baby and all this time I never knew that it was I chosen by Yahweh to bring forth greatness. A deliverer. A savior.. Who am I to be the mother of the Lord of Israel? Unworthy I am…
The past ten months have been the hardest yet the most beautiful days of my life. It was just the other day when Yosef’s uncle came to see my father because Yosef wanted my hand in marriage. The next thing you know, we were going to have a baby!
I can still remember the day it happened… The day I got pregnant... Oh God, you are amazing… I am amazed of this miracle in my hands… The salvation of mankind born through a human being… I am afraid to even mention to myself these terrifying deeds of our Lord. I am humbled Jehovah. Humbled for you have chosen me and blessed me beyond measure… For this is not just a baby boy… This is what Israel has been waiting for.
Yeshua stopped suckling. It was like he had heard what I just said. I was crying as I sang..
SING: You are beautiful beyond description… To marvelous for words.. To wonderful for comprehension.. like nothing ever seen or heard… who can grasp you infinite wisdom.. Who can fathom the depth of your love… you are beautiful beyond description.. Majesty.. Enthroned above… I stand in awe
(Well, maybe I don’t have the most beautiful voice in the world (chuckle), but I am sure Yeshua didn’t mind.)
I was not born in the palace, but here I am mothering a King. My womb has been blessed and all people of the earth because of you Yeshua. You have come in a disguise to a realm lower than yourself… only a few can discern who you truly are. Blessed are they whose inner eyes have recognized you.. What have we done to deserve such amazing love…. Oh how I wish I could tell mother and father about everything that has been happening. And my sister Salome, o how I miss her… There is so much to tell… About Prophet Simeon and Prophetess Anna and what they said to me about Yeshua. And the angels that have been appearing and guiding Yosef and I every day. At least Cousin Elizabeth understands me… But she is too far from me now.
But The Lord God has been my strength… He has been there when no one else wanted anything to do with me. My friends laughed at me and my parents ashamed of the disgrace I have caused to the family. But because of the Lord’s faithfulness I delivered his purpose safely. No harm has touched us. Safely I delivered what he miraculously placed in me… And he who placed Yeshua in me, he who made Yosef stay by my side to this day, he will see that Yeshua grows strong and healthy…
Yosef is already thinking of what a great carpenter you will be! Ha! A carpenter… we laughed together as he told me about it… He is a dreamer that one! I can just imagine you in Yosef’s workshop. He is a hard working man, with a kind and loving heart, no doubt about it. . And I am sure you will learn a lot from him... but you My Yeshua, you are more than a carpenter. I have no one else to tell so I will always tell you and remind myself that what I carried for 9 months is so much greater than myself. “He will be given the throne of his father David,” that’s what the angel of the Lord said unto me when he brought me the news. Of course I don’t tell that to Yosef. I would like for Yosef to think of you as his own. He has been so kind to me. He truly is a man of God.
I was sitting outside the house. I raised my head and looked at the river where my husband was. Yosef was looking up the sky. He has been doing so much of that lately. The sun had just awaken, and Yosef spent most of the night meditating upon the love Yahweh has for us. He says there are angels all around us. All the time…
I stood up and started walking around the garden. I smiled when I saw Yosef dancing. He is so beautiful. Then I looked at Yeshua again and said. Actually, you are not my baby Yeshua. I am just a steward of God’s seed. For you were given to me not of human efforts. Yosef and I did nothing to get you. I would be a fool if I had chosen to abort you or even consider how the Jewish leaders would think of me. The moment I said “Be it unto me according to thy will,” I was filled with the Holy Ghost and I know that is when he gave me you.
“We are just vessels my Lord” I said to Yeshua… “Yes, You are my baby… But greater than that, you are my Lord and I am your servant” tears were running down my face, I kissed his forehead and smiled. Yeshua opened his eyes and smiled back at me and his peace filled my heart.
xx
May His love consume you..
And may our eyes be opened to see that what He has done for us is the greatest love of all.. And may we respond to that love.. Because, each and every one of us was born for a purpose!
Merry Christmas Everyone!
